Month of July

This has been the most incredible month so far. Many happenings took place and they are to me by far one of the most mind-blowing incidents. One after another come by like a storm and sometimes like a feather and just equally impactable. I cannot say that I have been through alot as this is just the beginning of my life long journey and I do to a certain point of time enjoyed the challenges that come like a 'mack truck'! I can laterally felt 'Pertubation', 'Tight brain' 'Sleepless night', 'Numbness' and other form of emotions. Despite all these, I still came up with a DECISION and that is something I acknowledge myself for the courage. Well, sad to say I also lost people who loves me but its because I have to move forward to the brightness of future that resulted in all these 'bad' things that happened. I hope whoever is reading this blog now truly understand me, my position and my desire to succeed. I have only one road in front of me and that is SUCCESS.

This month July 1st was my 2nd Mastermind meeting, followed by Money and You. After 5 days, I came home to face my family and my boss to decide my turning point of my career and behind all these challenges, I met friends who are there to encourage and support me, to standby me and fight through out. Light minded, positive and 'can do attitude' angels appeared and guide me through this tough time of my journey. Friends, brother, sisters and friends that I had not met for years showed up to give their 100% to me. I cannot thank them enough and I know that the only way is to show results and that result is to do my 190% best of the best. No hold back, no reverse, no execuses, no nothing and one way to the top of the mountain and achieve my Grand Dream Goals. Wow, can see myself there already : )

Lastly, to my dad, mum, sister and myself - I promise to be always at my best to carry out any missions towards Success and I will do our family proud and bonded. NO ONE willdare say NO to us and by we giving love and gratification that we can allow others to grow and evolve too. I now release all judgements to people who wants to see us suffer and I bless them with all my heart and wish them successful.

With Love, Gratitude and Compassion, thank you all my friends and my family for standing by me. Love you all.

What I Feel Like Saying...

What I Feel Like Saying is I believe I have what it takes for a start to become a speaker, instructor and entrepreneur. This three identity requires COURAGE. There is DOUBT! COMMITMENT + ACTION which I have been demonstrating the last 10 days. There were DRAMAS as well, HUGE TIME. I have again went through another level of self-discovery. Many of time bad habits fall in place and when these habits happened, I will justify saying this is my DRAMA HOOK and in depth, its just another form of supressing, denying and escaping. Thick and thin I went through with my buddies, my family, myself to reasure my certainty again and yet it went off course that requires '3% correction' and without INVALIDATION to align myself again with the universe laws and the UNIVERSE. I know this may sound deep or maybe stupid but hack, this is my feel, my very emotion and thoughts I am feeling now. Immerse with strength, energy and beingness that I feel so great at this present moment. 29.07.07, I will remembered this day, this date and this year. I am very happy and grateful and I sure look forward to the day where I can 100% add value to being with all my mind, all my heart, all my soul without conditions! Thank you. Thats What I Feel Like Saying.

Power of Now

Now I am changing. Now I am deciding. Now I am soaring. Now I am certain. Now I am powerful. Now I am empower. Now I am motivated. Now I am Inspire. Now I am professional. Now I am a people person. Now I am rich. Now I am healthy. Now I am wealthy. Now I am an instructor. Now I am a speaker. Now I am highly determine.Now I am highly persistant. Now I am confidence. Now I am discipline. Now I am fill with strength. Now I am fit. Now I am cheerful. Now I am happy. Now I am joyful. Now I am courageous. Now I am fill with integrity. Now I am firm. Now I am trust worthy. Now I am present. Now I am honest. Now I am kind. Now I am love. Now I am grateful. Now I am commit. Now I am taking action. Now I am an entrepreneur. Now I am a multi multi multi multi millionaire. Now I am knowledgeable. Now I am smart. Now I am faithful. Now I am unlimited.Now I am unconditional loving people. Now I am a master in communication. Now I am a believer. Now I am alert. Now I am observance. Now I am a great listener. Now I am awesome. Now I am a avid reader. Now I am focus. Now I am concentrating. Now I am unstoppable. Now I am abundance. Now I am handsome. Now I am charming. Now I am successful. Now I am cautious. Now I am sweet tendering. Now I ma devote. Now I am super duper charge. Now I am fill with energy. Now I am 1000%. Now I am a leader. Now I am systematic. Now I am tidy. Now I am neat. Now I am clean. Now I am clear. Now I am supported. Now I am smiling. Now I am enlighted. Now I am a great master. Now I am a great body combat instructor. Now I am peaceful. Now I am healing. Now I am a great son. Now I am a greta brother. Now I am a great friend. Now I am a devote buddhist. Now I am here for a purpose. Now I am adding value. Now I am a businessman. Now I am SURE. Now I am Dennis.

My Last...

Today is my last...I promise to myself never to ever touch again. This is my word. I believe in myself and the universe in witnessing my promise. Now is the time! Thank you!

Decision

I am finally speaking up and have again decided what I want to do it life! In 2003 I decided to join Ed to emark a journey of self discovery and I did it! In 2004, I have decided to continue my education in psychology and I did it! Now 2007, I have decided to step up and discover entrepreneurship and now my decision to that is in the process. This is the toughest decision I ever made because it will impact me. However, with the leap of faith and courage, I faced it and for the 1st time after so long, I felt really Great! Its not a difficult decision after all but because of self doubt and fear that procrastinate this final decision. I always remembered AR's quote - 'Its in the moment of decision that your destiny is shaped'. Its so true and I will NEVER experience it until I did it! Its only through doingness then I will know the results. Just like the last M&Y, I have again gain clarity. This 2 weeks had been one of the most amazing journey I had encountered so far and I know there will be more to come. I am ready for more! Bring it on...

17th July 2007 17.07.07

WIFLS is I am damn sleepy now. Sitting in the office simply put me to sleep. I am tired and restless. Just feel like dropping my head on the desk and ZzZzzzzz....... : ) This few days I am just sooo tired. I am filled with lots of thoughts and think think think think.....keep thinking.....argggghhh..........

7 days later...

Been a week since I am back from Money and You. During this one week, I am over whelmed by many tremendous happenings. I have so much to share and do not know where and how to start. I can't face my blog or anyone during that period of time. I was stucked, lost, supressed, uncertain, shock, surprised, fearful, and many many kind of mixed emotions. I have not felt this way before and these feelings were there to teach me something, things that I had never came across ever.

This Money and You was the best ever for myself to know so much about me, the truth, the hidden self, the doubt, the courage, the changes, the dramas, my mentors, my family, my love ones, my friends, my collegaues, my boss and human beings indeed! I am taken aback by many incidents that does not seems what it appears to be and the ending was somehow painful yet relief that I had witnessed the truth and the truth is true to my context and I am responsible for all these emotions and trigger. What had I done to ATTRACT all these? What was the cause? ME is the answer! I am the cause, I am the creator, I was the victim of my self. I am responsible for ME.

Within a short period time I was awaken! NOW I am making decisions that will lead me to doubt, fear, uncertainty and yes this is just one side of the coin and the other flip side, courage sinked in, determination, perseverance, faith, actions and power sinked in so deeply that it overrules all impossibilties and forward I charge! I can 'see' it and I believe I will achieve it!

I learned to shut up, stay grounded, channel my energy and enthusiasm in a firm and calm manner which no one need to know but feel. I have so much clarity and distinctions in M&Y for the first time after going back 7 times. This was the one that I really 'get it' after 4 years. I did not know that this program was more than just powerful and beyond this program there was another level, a level which no words and I mean no words can describe. A kind of feeling that you must be there to feel it and really FEEL it.

I am so tired now.....

Now its the time!

Good Morning! I am off to KL now! Suddenly super duper charge!!! Anw I had a hair cut and I look super duper punk! I like it because my collegeaue said I looked younger and look very unquie for a job that I am working in now(my USP). YES!!!! Ok manz I am off and to those that I will miss in M&Y - Joe, Jean, Sylvia, Kok Leong, Lilian and Andi, take care buddies and I will have 'you' guys and gals with me in my heart. Look forward to work with you all in Nov M&Y. Have a great weekend ahead!!!

Love you lots,
Dennis

Feelings

I am very super tired now as I only slept for 3.5 hours since yesterday morning. Right now I feel like a zombie and yet in 4 hours time I will depart to KL for Money and You. Wow...I am very excited and yes I need to sleep to recharge my energy and spirit again. This time I am going M&Y not just for the fun, the participants or others but to search for answers too, answers to my direction. Today I had a tough time with my dad and finally we had a completion. Dad, thank you for your understanding and support and I am glad I have open up to you and speak whats in my mind. You are indeed a very responsible father. I am very blessed to be your son. Thanks Pa! Going to M&Y is a place where I can totally surrender to the space given to me. The people, energy, environment totally support me in allowing my emotions to flow effortlessly. I had much more clarity and distinctions than anywhere else in the planet. That is also where I am committed to go back every round to learn more things and get more certainty with my life.

I am going with a total open mindset and I am willing to love and support everyone and myself. Right now, WIFLS is I am very peaceful and present in every letter that I am typing. I will miss writing my blog as I will be away for almost a week. Whatever the case, I will be back! Thank you to myself and to the universe in engaging this very moment of my life. I am truly BLESSED!
Thats WIFLS...

Thank you for the questions

You are really amazing. I love the questions you asked because I have more clarity and more understanding about you. You have transformed quite a bit and I somehow like the way you are now. Power manz! Anyhow, thank you for sharings and I am happy with all these moments I had with you. Stay true and stay focus, together lets achieve our goals and dreams! Take care my friend. See you soon

Adelene...

Adelene,

I first met you in Money and You 2003 July. You were the PD and Ken was ALS and promoted to LS because you fired someone. During that point of time, I did not know what were all those terms until I did log in July 2004. I do not know you and all I know then was you are a powerful lady so powerful that Dominique has to listen to your instructions at all time. That was then I held the upmost respect for you and today, the respect is still here in my heart. Oct 2003, my sister Lynn attended M&Y and I was there to support her. My first encounter with you was the 'Option' game. I was not in log but was up on the stage overlooking the 'animals'. I was about 8 feet away from you and you pointed your finger at me and from your essence without words, I can see that you want me to get off the stage! Manz, can you imagine how shock I was. In my mind, I was thinking 'Wau kau' make me 'Paisei' in front of so many people. A little angry la(hahaha...) Today after attending many logs, I understand why as you and I know how intensity and tense it can be during that final game.

Mar 2004, I flew from Brisbane to KL just to be in M&Y. This time I participatied as a reciever in the blocks game. Then, I still do not know you in person.
July 2004, Lynn and I decided to participate in M&Y logistics. I was then the flipchart master and Lynn games master. Wow wow wow... to me for such roles as masters were challenging yet fun! I really enjoyed the role with my teammates. Came the final day, I was shocked to be invited to your room together with Lynn. I thought what happened then and I realized that was the moment where our friendship begun! I was delighted and of cos 'high' la...

I came back with Lynn to be in log again in Oct M&Y and it was the most memorable because it followed up with ITP. Then and then Brendan Nicholas was the instructor who is very spiritually powerful. His approach was totally different from Dominique and I learned heaps of stuffs from him although same M&Y contexts! What more importantly next was my friendship with you rose to another level when I was in the music as assistant in M&Y and as a master in ITP. Thank you for picking me to be in ITP. That was one of the most unforgettable moments in my life. We were so connected and sygnergise in music station which brought us closer.

6 months later Mar 2005, we came back again from Brisbane to be in log. This time heavier responsbility - Music Master. Never did I think that I had survived through and not only that I had more connection with Dominque as we worked together closely. Thank you for the opportunity. During then, our friendship rose to another level again....

2 years later, 3 months ago, April M&Y, for the first time after missing the logs for 5 rounds, we were back! This time back with a vengance. Me as flipchart master again and Lynn as Dom's PA. WOW! We were impressed with ourselves : ) During then, never thought that my friendships with SinYan, Sylvia, Kok Leong, Lilian, Vasu, Andi and Joe had changed 360 degree and impacted my life tremendously. We became best-est of friends and not only just friends but friends who can align in FEELINGS and CONNECTIONS. Unbelieveable!!! The role that you put me in with Kok Leong had made us become best of brothers, SinYan and Sylvia as Love Nest angels had arise our friendship sky rocket high. My friendship with Joe and Vasu had turn around from earth to heaven. And of cos with you to a deeper level, then again need not describe in words but essence!

What I want to put across to you is that YOU have unconsciously planted many many many happiness in people that you have and have not came acrossed with. Example, me who have found leadership roles in log, great friends that I know I can counted on and many more. Lynn who has 'no' friends found friends just by showing up in M&Y and another level of friendship too with DOM. I believe SinYan, Sylvia, Kok Leong, Lilian, Vasu, Andi, Joe and many others felt the same way too. We found part of ourselves again by the certain positions you had allocated us for. Its your essence, feelings and clarity of power with no ego attached have make you who you really are. You are indeed a true PD with responsibility. Thank you for being YOU!

So Adel, I speak for myself is that no matter what happen to you, when you need a listener, I am willing to be your ears. You need a shoulder to cry on, I will be your shoulders. You need a chest to hit and vent your anger, I will be your chest (but let me train more first to develop muscles to 'tahan' your hit) for you to hit on. Sister, I will and promise you that I am ALWAYS ALWAYS here to love and support you till the end. I will never leave you in lurch and I am 100% in this friendship. You are my true friend and will always be. I will want to see you Shine again and look forward to the day where you become Asia Number 1 Arts Therapist! Jia You!

You are simply the Best!

Yours Sincerely,
Brother Tan

Past 4 days.

My last update was 29th June and today July 3rd, 4days later, I am back to this world. What do I mean I am back? Where have I been?

First Healing
I want to thank Adelene for chatting with me on the phone on Friday (29th June) for almost two hours. Thank you for your patience in picking up my call time after time when I need to hang up due to clients call. Your shrings, love and support had helped me tremendously. I don't know but I felt really great after putting down the call. You are a great healer just by asking QUESTIONS and questions that led me to answer my feelings had been experiencing. You are powerful! Thank you for your great support sis.

Second Healing
Met up with a friend and had a great long chat. We discussed on goals and dreams and how I can achieve it. I am really blessed to be in that discussion with you. Thank you for your time and patience in guiding me through. You are a great friend!

Third Healing.
Brother Joe and KL, I have been looking forward to see you two for our second masterminding. I just want to air out whatever there is in me and I am glad that two of you had been there patiently listening and supporting me. I just want to say THANK YOU Oceans' 3 for the wonderful space that had created for me. I am grateful.

Fourth Healing.
MYSELF. Dennis, you have been through what you got to go through. You are a emotional man and you got to set it right. Find tune with yourself and adjust accordingly. No doubt you are sad, angry and disappointed but got to get over it! Move on brother. You can heal yourself. Love is awaiting you to give to others who will treasure more and appreciate more. Abundance of it out there : ) just outflow and believe you will receive it! Thank you Dennis, myself, for the past days of rollar coaster rides of emotions. You have done great and is a test to a greater strength developing within you. Well done!

In short, I am very excited and happy to be in this position now where new distinctions are discovered and decisions are made! I can't wait for the things I had set to happen! Lets wait and see. It won't be long. Stay tune!