Thought of Leaving

Right this very MOMENT NOW, I want to leave my company. It has nothing to do with the environment, people or the product. I just suddenly felt that I want to detach from this part of the world. I am not feeling good right now. Really no good!

Venting

Today when I woke up, I felt something heavy pressing on me. Could be the supression I am holding that result in such state of emotion. What happen next was when I had a dialogue with my dad and he was pouring out his worrisome stuffs onto me, about how he felt about Lynn and I going M&Y and how he will lose a great deal of stuffs. Worry worry worry and anger anger anger built up every single fucking day. I am damn fucking tired of all this. What the fuck! Everyone wants his/her way especailly in work! Fucking hell, I am sick and tired of all this fucking shit.Always have to think of others and yes its good but how about ME? Me me me? Why am I treating myself this way? Man, got to be fair to me man bro! Just 2 weeks ago, everything seems floating and overwhelming with so much happiness and love! And now 2 weeks later, also overwhelming but with anger, sadness, disappointment. Its so fucking contrast on how one person can have such state of emotion and feelings within such short period. Its pretty extreme too! Anyhow, I am still grateful to have such feelings because I experience it with acknowledgement and at least I know how to handle such feelings should I encounter it again.

I am tired of what I am facing in my company. I am not enjoying and yet letting people pushing me around with their knowledge. To me, their life is work and home! No education, no exercising, no self-empowerment. Only drinking, smoking, spending money, go holidaying and thats it! I have a different set of belief and I have a choice! I miss those days that I was up on the stage teaching participants BC and I am so proud of it. Could be a calling that I want to go back to that industry part time and at the same time brain storming other stuffs. I enjoyed myself when I did the intro in EAP and yes I am committed. I felt happy when I talked to people and asking their needs and challenges. I still remembered I sold my first NAC tickets in ED and that was one of the greatest feeling ever! Sales! I must push myself harder and that kind of support needs to be 100% from hmm.... maybe my dad. He is very concern and caring, yet I feel I need to 'go' ahead with my life and DECIDE for myself and not anyone else's expectation or hope. I must MAKE it!

A cycle repeat

This feeling is intense but more present of awareness than before. The same thing happened to me 5 years ago. I then was young(in thinking), lifeless, visionless, down, spolit, no goal, no life, no nothing! Today I am entirely opposite and yet the cycle repeat. I am more conscious now of what I am going through and at least I acknowledge it. Yes I am sad, damn sad, infact fucking sad or should I say 'ego' is talking - Anger! For things to change 1st I must CHANGE. Yes, change what in me? What do I need to change? The size of the question determines the size of the result! The end result that I WANT to HAVE is achieveable and yet the things I am doing now may not be able to help me to achieve it. Who knows? Too early to say!Anw, lets get back to the first part of the story.

I was very upset when I first heard it. I thought to myself why is all these happening to me? What is wrong and what do I have to learn from it? That pain was a needle that stick to my heart and lasted moment that I will not forget. As the night fell through, I slept and yet the moment I woke up I was sad again. I pulled through till the night and guess what? Another emotion strike with my boss. WOW, holy mother cow. Whats in it for them!!! Two at one go, career and personal relationship and both came down hard on me like thunder and lightning striking me with electrifying velocity.

Then on the other side, I am blessed with friends around me that give me 100% support. They are like the bright sunny vibrant angels that appeared to shone the rain and storm from hurting me. SCG is definitely the ultimate 'die hard' beings and of cos my sister who is always there to be there for me. My other friend that I happened to meet on the road as well. Thank you for sharings and I believe we can build great friendship together.

WIFLS is I will not let this affect me too long and time will help me to heal my confusions of mixed feelings. Whatever the case, I Dennis Tan will shine and soar like an eagle that spread wings beneath my wings and nothing gonna to stop me from going where I want to go. Right now I am in the healing process and I thank Everyone and the great spirit for guiding me through this process. I am grateful and I am blessed. Love will keep me alive : )

Thats WIFLS

@>>---- this rose is for the SCGs. I love you.

Ease the Heart

As I am reading my dharma book, I came across this passage:

When I have troubled in mind,
I try to recall Huike's encounter with Bodhidharma-
for he had trouble in mind too...

He asked the Master to ease his troubled heart.
And the Master asked that he find it for him to ease.
He could not find it...
And the Master exclaimed:
"There - I have just eased your heart!"

How fickle is this heart in reality!
It is mere attachment to this and that which troubles it.
And the troubles are formless, ever-changing.
Much of our inner torment is simply because we hang on,
giving the formless form.
Making "problems" concerete and brooding over them-
that could be the real problem!
Sometimes, we only have to let go to be free.

WIFLS

WIFLS is I feel really great talking to you. Your unconditional safe supportive space has allow me to be myself 100% and allows me to be real without any judgement. I feel really good now. Hyper is the word I should say. Great pal, I appreicate you in my life and I look forward to our next meeting. Thank you for talking to me. Good night and I will see you soon.

Get Serious with Life and Life will get serious with you!

Alot of things are easy to 'think', easy to 'write' and easy to 'say' because they are FREE! Putting into action.,you will need to pay and may not necessarily be money. It can make up of time, energy, sacrifice, commitment and many other stuffs to get what YOU WANT in life. Whatever you are doing now, is it going towards or helping you to achieve what you desire? Or maybe you are not able to see it yet but do you have the FAITH to keep yourself going?

Faith is the ability to see the invisible. Its about having to move forward despite challenges or obstacles. You must be able to see the outcome and follow through with all your heart and soul. Believing in oneself is more importantly than any other thing in this planet. Look fot the Hero that lies in you and unleash it. One life, One time and only This very time in this planet. Yes, we may come back into this planet after death but not in this form anymore. Maybe an animal, a lady, a plant etc. So whats stopping you now? NOTHING! This life, play full out 100% and live each day like its your last. Get serious with Life and life will get serious with you! Nothing is gonna to stop us! Lets charge...

Money and You Revisit

Today is my first M&Y revisit. This is very interesting because it allows me to get in depth with what I have learned in M&Y outside M&Y environment. Today's flipchart is 'Orbit in Love'. Its very interesting to learn about this flipchart in a different manner other than M&Y term. 'Listening' from Masters is a skill which one has to be very present in it. Today I went with a open-mind, so open that I actually did not speak a single word during the discussion. I really enjoyed listening except some people, infact only one lah and that one I think you all(SCG) who is reading my blog know who I am talking about : ) hmm..... I think Tai-Chi is interesting(heehee...)

Joo Hock is a very knowledgable man. I have heard about him umpteen times and today finally get to see him in person and shook his hand. Its like shaking 'Singapore version Bucky's hand' wor, so honored! He shared and narrowed down his knowledge to simpler form, allowing everyone especially the first-timer to understand what his communiation is all about. I can see wisdom in him as he developed over the decade from his devotion to Bucky's philosophy. I respect him for his devotion and passion. A great man with intellgence.

The session ended well with WIFLS and I can see everyone enjoyed the session. I will attempt again to attend the next M&Y revisit. Hopefully this round I can communicate more with the Masters of the Universe. Thank you for today.

Its in the moment of decision that your Destiny is shaped!

I decide to give 100% in everything that I am doing. I shall have no judgement in whatsoever that I am doing now. Just do it and giving my best shot. I feel I can give more than 100% than what I can give. Its about me and I have got to do it. Its my Destiny that I am shaping. I am in control of my life and my path towards my Grand Dreams Goals. I thank Universe for this 'tap' that I just received within this hour. Its creepy yet beliving.

Feeling PEAK again!

Having my workout laterally perks my performance. I felt 100% again. I am fully recovered from my back ache and sickness. I am really blessed and lucky. I dun know why suddenly I felt a rush of confidence that lift me up again. In my work, although I have major challenges, I felt its not the end of the world. Like Kok Leong shared earlier when we were in the train, employee can be a great thing as well because after work, we can use our time for some other source of means to fulfill our goals or dreams or even business which I want to set up without worrying about no income because as we are focusing on our stuffs, monthly salary is still coming in, therefore NO WORRIES : ) WOW, that was one of the distinction that I brought home today. See I told you, Kok Leong is really different in looking things at a different angle. Thanks Bro! With that, I am somehow motivated to work again : ).

SinYan as well. She had shared wiith me her working experiences in her ex-company and how she has evolved. Her legendary work has last such a great impression that now the lady boss still employ her part time to run her business and yet at the same time she is focusing on her angelz wedding. Wow...what great example it is to inspire me. I am really really so bless!!! Thank you my friends for being there for me to share so much. I am grateful and I promise your sharings will not go to waste. I will practise it! : ) Thank you all!

Lastly to myself Dennis - Remember this. Whenever you are down or upset, think of someone who do not even has the opportunity to feel that way because either they are gone or physically/mentalyy ill. Be grateful for every emotion that comes along, acknowledge and learn from M&Y, WHOOSH OFF! Move forward and listen to the song 'Hero'. It will help you!!! Family and SCG has done so much for you, dun you think its time you do something to yourself and help others too? You are so love and bless and please share this happiness with others and the less fortunate so that they can be happy too. Be grateful and move towards Success. You can realize your Grand Dream Goals because you BELIEVE in yourself. Have FAITH and the Universe will back you up! Keep it up Dennis : ) I CAN DO IT!!!

Oceans' 3 Gym-ing

Oceans' 3 met up today for a one hour power up gym session. After tonight workout, I believe Kok Leong 's chest and my chest has grow 0.5 inch (Sylvia, you can check it out with your hubby heehee...). Joe's shoulder was swelling up and for a moment he looked like incredible hulk! Manz...after each of our individual muscle part training, we did the final biceps curls together. Wow... you should see our eyes, it looks as if its gonna to pop out any moment. We squeeze and squeeze, pump and pump and kept 'wacking' till our arms dropped dead. Brothers, finally we did it!!! We really felt empowered and satifised when we walked out the gym. Kok Leong, I must acknowledge you for your great effort in training. Though this is your second time, I strongly believe you will look really great in shape if you train constantly. Keep up the good work bro! Joe, though you may not look as big, but I can see the pertruding muscles of yours shaping up clearly. Slowly but surely I can see the real incredible hulk growing. : ) All the way bro! As for myself, I must learn to balance my cardio and weights session. At the end of the day its all about fitness and keeping myself in good shape. I will continue to strive hard towards the dream body on my dream board. Jia You!!!

Oceans'3, thank you for today. I really enjoyed myself alot and lets strive towards success. See you soon brothers.

Thank you SCG!

I cannot thank enough to every single one of you SCGs who had done this party and celebrated with me. This is truly my most unforgettable and most memorable birthday party I ever have.

WIFLS is

Joe - Your breath in every balloon (5 breath and 7 breath system) is truly treasured by me : )
Brother, I want to thank you for being there for me when I needed someone to talk to the most when I was down, upset, joyous and fun. You have never fail to stood right there for me. Your presence has brought alot of wonderful things to my life and I appreciated it alot. I am very happy and grateful to have you as my great friend. Thank you brother!

Jean - You are the angel that I knew 4 years ago and I know that whatever circumstances or challenges I have, you will always be there to guide and pray for me. I am really blessed to have someone like you in my life and I want to thank you for showing up. Words need no explain how close you are to me as a sister and I am grateful to have you. You are a great pal! Muacks.

Andi - This year since SCG is formed after M&Y, I get to know you much better. No doubt initally I could not get myself to speak to you because I have judgement. Now, I release all these judgement and allow myself to communicate with you and I know that we can be great buddies because we are meant to be. Thank you for being my friend Andi. Lets build this ever-lasting friendship!

Lilian - What can I say about this cutie little lady who never look like your age. Honestly speaking Lilian, I never thought I would be this close to you. Initially in M&Y, I thought we will not even keep in touch but little did I know that we have come this far that when I was in pain, you were the first to massage me in the room. Man, I was very happy and blessed to have a sister like you who care for me. Like you mentioned in my birthday message, I had made a wish and that is to have you as my great pal forever!

Joseph - We have yet to do much connection due to your busy overseas schedule, however I know that you are someone who I can definitely be great friends with because we are light minded people with full of energy and power! This is a saying in chinese ' Lai Re Fang Chang'. We will have plenty of time to catch up in future. In the meantime bro, lets keep this synery going. Thank you for the wishes and I will see you soon my friend. : )

Vasu - The man with lotsa of hyper energy and fun. Whenever I think of you I will laterally smile because you are a darn fun guy to be with. Your actions and speech is funny and entertaining. Yes, of course the other side of you had portray wisdom and intelligence too. I really enjoyed every outing with you. Thank you buddy for appearing in my life. You are a humourous man and my great buddy!

Sylvia - A sister who I am really happy to call you as my Sister. Never thought I can even start such a great friendship with you. Since then, many many happening stuffs took place - Cherating trip, EAP set up, Kallang sharings, my birthday party and many more! You are there for every single occasion. So fun to have you around and I want to thank you for booking the hotel room from your friend and being part of the organiser for this memorable party. Thank you Sylvia for being a great sister to me. I treasure this friendship!

Kok Leong - Brother, same thought as your wife, I never thought we can come this far to becoming such great pals and even form a mastermind group together. You are really a darn creative man. With you around, everything seems to have a different angle to look at it. You are very quick-witted. Thank you for appearing in my life and I know that we are great buddies forever and ever. Ocean 3 rocks!!!

SinYan - Thank you for the preparation of the video clip. That was a major blow. Like a 'Mack Truck' except this truck is in sponge version. The video laterally brought me to my inner child and the first thing that came to my mind was the visualization we had during day 3 in M&Y. I remembered the little child when I hugged tightly and saying 'yes' to support me in whatever things that I do. Thank you for all these preparations and sincere hardwork. I am truly grateful to the universe that brought you into my life, showing me what friendship is all about. You are a great lady and a great friend to me. Thank you Xiao Yan Zi. YOU can truly realize your dreams and lets work towards it. Jia You!

Adelene - Well well well. The Queen, the PD, the Fairy Godmother, the healer, what else??? EVERYTHING!!! Sister, your presence has brought lotsa of glow to every single SCGs. You are the light of the gang and I am really happy to have you back in Singapore. I know you are someone who is going to be a great leader in this world and someone who can heal any being from any challenges. Most importantly heal yourself slowly but surely, constantly to add lotsa of value to being in this universe. You are someone great and someone with a big heart. You are here in this planet for a reason and this reason is only you to know : ) Keep the faith going and I will always be there to love and support you. My Sister, thank you for appearing in my life and I appreciate every moment I have with you. You are a gem.

Lynn - My blood sister with me under one roof together for 23.5 years. Like you said, slient fart is from me and killer fart is from you. We had understand each other so well that we need not speak and we know what each of us is thinking about. You are a super attractive lady. Someone with brain, figure, gorgeous look and sexy appeal. Any guy will fall for you but before that they must 'fall' for me first(haha...take after from dad mah) before they can get pass to you. Your safety, my protection (hahaha...). You will be someone very very very very very Successful one day and that day is coming very near. I can see it! Keep up your great work in your career and I look forward to have a BIG holiday celebration with you, Dad and Mum! I Love You sister, FOREVR AND EVER!

Lastly to All of you the Sweetest Craziest Gang, I Love every single one of you and I will always be there for you! Have a great stunning wonderful life ahead and I wish you Success, Happiness, Great Health and Wealth!!!

Yours Truly
Dennis

Surprise 4

I actually had a slight sprained on my back and I thought SinYan lead me to the door area to help me massge or give me something to apply on. She opened the door and standing right in front of me - ADELENE! I walked back as she walked forward. I could not believe or hold on to the surprises anymore. My blood was rushing to my brain like anytime it will explode, nerves and blood vessels seems to be bursting out, heart pumping like 200 beats per minute. Finally I hugged Adelene and tears flow again... I actually hit Adel on her back for LYING TO ME. Sounds hard but its not : ) I Just spoke to her 2 days before my birthday and she said she will be back on 22nd June. There she was, standing in front of me. Goosh..... One of my wish is to have her back on my birthday as I remembered I told her if she could come back to celebrate together with me and the gang : ) She showed up and honored her YES! Thank you sister. I respect that.

The night went well with many many phototakings and catching up with one another. Finally we slept at 4.30am dreaming off with uncountless number of snores from some of the SCG members including my good self. Thank you for the tolerance to those who did not sleep well : ), I promise you there will be more (hahaha).

Surprise 3

The bedsheet that hung on the ceiling was pulled down and there it was - SinYan (supposed to be on the way back hor), Lilian, John Stamoulus, my boss and his wife, Pew and Fennel (we had beer couple of hours earlier), Sen Hui, my Aikido buddy, Alex and his friend Zoe, Vinod and Ah Yang! All my best-est friends were all there standing right infront of me. 1,2,3 together they sang another birthday song to me. Second cake and this time its really cake cutting. I was really really really surprise. I could not believe what they have done for me!

Guess what....MORE.......

Surprise 2

The door opened, a boutique of flowers stand tall in front of me, music sung out from the room and the video clip cast through the bedsheet cloth that hung over the ceiling. A video clip of me from a new-borned baby to where I am now, showing progressive growth of me as a boy to a teenage and to adulthood. Every phase of my life was shown clearly by the photos they had put up and the music was the most intense part especially when it paired well with the timing of the photos shown. My tears flow again like a tap.....

But that was not it.......

Surprise 1

Finally after 2 hours with my boss and family, I met up with Joe, Jean and my dear sister Lynn at cineleisure. Lynn had to go off last minute because her friend is in bad shape(base on past events, I trusted her!) and she will join us later in the hotel. Remaining just the three of us, we had dinner at the foodcourt and a drink at burger king which we get to know a American. Four of us had a nice chat together : )

I asked Joe whether SinYan is done with her father's day dinner? He called her on the mobile and they actually communicate so darn well, real and professional that I believed the conversation was genuine. Joe said she just finished and on the way back to Singapore where her dad's friend will fetch her to the hotel.

We then made our way there slowly, so slow that we waited for the train for almost 15 minutes as it was the last train. Upon reaching Tanjong Pagar train station as planned we are supposed to see Andi and Lynn at the station to go to the hotel together. As I walked up escalator leading us to the garden, I saw my name DENNIS decorated with light sticks on the grass patch. Above my name, it hanged 13 love notes in heart shape on the tree. Each SCG member wrote their best wishes to me. Then out of nowhere, Kok Leong and Sylvia popped out with a box of muffin birthday cakes and start singing birthday song to me! Goosh....I was not able to let my tears flow as I was shocked and surprise. Even though Joe said 'Let it go', I dun noe what to let go except joy and happiness. I made my birthday wishes and blow off the candle. As the cakes were muffins and tied up with ribbons, there isn't any cake cutting but ribbion cutting ceremony. I thought it was a very creative idea to have muffin cakes as a birthday cake : )

Before I took the love notes down from the tree, I read every single one of them and each note was so full of love and support. I could not help but cry as I read along. I was so so touched by what they had written on the cards. After the readings, I did one round of WIFLS to Kok Leong, Sylvia, Joe, Jean, Andi and Lynn. It was truly an unforgettable moment!

I thought that was it...............

The Beginning

15th June Friday

I was supposed to meet up with Joe, Jean and Lynn for dinner 7.30pm at Newton Circus. A very last minute invitation from my boss, demanding to buy me a drink for my birthday celebration had caused me to delay the dinner appointment as I was not able to reject him. I felt bad then turning my buddies down but they are really 'understanding' : )

A few others could not made it to the initial planned dinner because SinYan was back in JB for 'father's day celebration' (ya right), Kok leong(true case) and Sylvia(haha....) in Taekwondo training, Andi was in work due to internal transfer to other department(ya ya ya...) and they will only join us later at 11.30pm. I TRUSTED THEM and most importantly I TRUSTED JOE! The genuine cases were only 3 - Vasu could not made it due to family commitment, Lilian in wedding dinner and Joseph was in China for business.

The plan was to have dinner together and later checked in to Amara hotel for a mini celebration and also SCG gathering. Actually for me is more on the gathering and birthday is part of the celebration.

I was shocked initally as well when SinYan shared with me they actually booked a room for me. I never thought they would do such a thing and to me that is already one BIG surprise but then I also thought it would be a great idea so that everyone can stayed back till late night without considering any mid-night cab charges.

My 26th Birthday, 16th June 2007.

Its been 3 days since my birthday on Saturday and till this moment now I am still over whelmed by the things SCG had done for me. I have never ever ever had such a party ever in my entire LIFE! The surprises were heart-pumping, aderaline rushing, high-blood rising, internal organs soften like jelly, every single goose bump arose from every single part of my entire body and heart core melting like a volacno lava. My tears flow like maybe 'Huang He' instead of the well know Bucky 'Hudson River' and I was in state of shock, joy, frozen moment and many many many more emotions. My wish was simple to have the SCGs gathering again after a long time since we last met and also my birthday as a bonus to celebrate. Instead.....well, go to the next blog to read on the SURPRISES these sweetest people had done for me....

Not 100%

Yes, I may have found 'myself' and because of finding myself, I discovered the truth. The truth may sometimes be good as all upsets are opportunites to know the truth but what the heck! Whats the sadness about? Myself to know. Right now, I am feeling not 100%. Sometimes I felt very ironic because I really dun know what the F*** am I doing! What the heck and what the mother holy cow am I thinking!!! Goosh, this is perking me now. Man!!!! Fuck! Really!!! OK!!! Let me calm down first....

Back from Perth

Finally I am back : ) its been a great holiday with my colleague and boss. Each has their partner/soulmate and mine was the little boy Luke (Boss' son) who is only 3 years of age. I have so much fun with him and his '1000 whysss' questions just keep my head rolling and thinking. Good on you son : )

I will keep this short. My most memorable time in Perth was when I ran up to the mountain, facing the big indian ocean, the limitless sky and the earth, making many affirmations to myself in living my life to the max. Having the Universe as my witnesses laterally perks me even more!I can still feel that power within me now when I think about it. Yes, its this moment only! I have so much to share and I will continue on my next blog.

Anyhow, I am grateful for this trip and I am truly happy because I have found something, MYSELF!

Adelene

Sis, I could feel the pain in you after I read your blog since June 10th. As I am writing this blog, I could not help but controlling my flowing tears. I never read a blog that felt so hurting and I have never see you behaving this way when you are writing. There must be a reason to that and that reason is only for you to overcome. I could not do anything now but to send my love and support to you. I wish I can see see you now and be there for you in whatever emotions you are going through. I know its tough yet it makes you into a stronger person or you can say fuck the 'strong' part and be with the feelings. Yes, this is the feeling, feeling FUCK! I know because I can feel it. Now 3 days had passed, I hope you have recover from whatever pain or sadness you have gone through. Right now, the days are getting closer to you coming back and I damn look forward to see you! Whatever you are feeling now, feel it and BE with it! Take care my sister. I Love You.

Blogging at Budget Airport

Cool!!! Right now in th budget airport terminal. Nice feeling especially when you know you will be flying in 1 hours time! haha...I am so blessed! Just bought a Armani Exchange perfume! Really nice! So ladies, sniff for me... you will be attracted!!! (haiz... self esteem always so high). Anw, to the SCGs and many of my lovely friends out there, I miss you all and I will always 'bring' all of you with me wherever I go! See you next week. To adel- Oei come back fast lah... stop blogging start flying back... heehee...! Waiting for you to party and drink up!!! Love you sis!

Your truly, sincerely, compassionately, faithfully and affectionally,

Success Coach
Dennis Tan

Perth

In less than 7 hours, I will on the plane to Perth. No so much excitment maybe because its a different group of people I am going with. Nevertheless I will not judge and doubt and just go with the flow. I will enjoy to the MAX and enjoy the scenery and weather. Highest temperature should be 20 degree and lowest below 10. Shoik!!!

And on the other side of the world, part of SCGs are going sentosa!!! How can man! Bro Joe bless with 4 angels beauties in bikni swim wear running around the beach. I think I also not too bad la, considering 'Ang Mo' ladies in beach wear too at the beach.

I will miss you guys and gals again and I will be back next Wednesday. Keep in touch and next week we will celebrate my birthday together! Darn look forward!!!

Dealer offer.

How blessed again can I be? How can great things happened in a row??? I was being offered to be a dealer with my bank, the team that monitored the US and European market. They are the most important execution desk I should say as they are the only US and European dealers in our bank. Therefore me my goodself was being offered to join them(considering I am only 3 months and inexperience) is a darn great thing that can ever happened! He came over and spoke to me briefly about how he felt about me if I were join their team. Mainly its not about experience but Attitude. I was approached twice by two different team for two different position on two different occassions. Its something they saw in me which they felt I can valued add to their team and clients. I am Honoured! Like Kok Leong shared, they are the two masters that appeared in my life to teach me somethng and that is already one of the most valuable asset I can find in this company. Thank you J. and R.

I am blessed with abundance ofopportunity and the ocean is out there to flow with me. Thank you Universe for sending me the people to work with me towards my dreams and goals. I am GRATEFUL, really GRATEFUL.

My Dad with Power!

Dear Dad, I hold my upmost respect to you! You have did it! I am soooooooo happy that you have achieved it within ONLY ONE WEEK! Hello!!! How did you do it??? The....poured in like the Hudson River....Wow Wow Wow... : ) Great on you!

We are so blessed to have you. Your action and everything is for us! Thank you Dad : ) Yesterday when my sister and parents went shopping, they bought a U-Pilot Osim massage chair! Red colour ok! It will arrive next Tuesday. Can't wait to get my butt on that chair to feel the massaging on my back, thigh, butt and....thats it lah...where else : )

Feels really great and very very very very very very happy!!!!! Thank you to my family and thank you to my prayers. Love you my dearest Da, Mum and Sister.

Master Mind Group Formed!

Its been 3 days since I last updated and during this 3 days many dynamic things had happened..

Wednesday 6th June 2007 was the day where a Master Mind group was formed! Its always been my dream to find the right people to form this group and there the Universe answered my manifestations, sending two mighties into my life - Joe and Kok Leong. We had our first meeting held at WHATEVER and that will be the permanent place for our meetings. It a space where we we felt really comfortable and safe in to discuss and shared. We found a cosy corner and sat down brainstorming the topics and discussion that we are going to talk about, how we are going to push each other towards SUCCESS, accountable to each other growth, call it on each other with compassion and love. We had design a 'Methodology' to help us through this process : ) !The meeting lasted about 2 hours and ended with lots of clarity, bonding and energy. We are so excited towards the goals we had set! We proceeded for supper to complete the outing(Kok Leong resisted to eat as he set his goal that involve weight...haha, good luck bro, we will be watching!) Our goals started the moment we seperated and the sms start to flow to accountable for each other. Well done bros!

Dear Brothers, I just want to say I am very happy and grateful to have two of you in my life to form this group. I am committed to two of you in lifting one another to another level and I will always be at my 100% with the group to participate fully and play to win! Lets Do It! I look forward to the next fitness meeting and lets pump to the max! Have a great dynamic life ahead! See you soon.

My Dad.

During the past two days, besides my intense training in gym I have also encountered intense emotion with my dad. It is the 'essence of anger'. My dad is a real 'hard' businessman. So hard that his brain juice is 100% used up to build his empire. He is facing many challenges with partners and still working on it. I can see he had done his part but the remaining team or I should say only one of them is delaying his part of the work which result in delaying of the whole business plan. It can be very frustrating especially when my dad participate 100% to WIN and the other only 'play not to lose'. We (Lynn and I) as his children could only support him in whatever ways we can to lightened up his tension. Mum also did her best by cooking great food to motivate him. Today, finally after 3 days, I see him smiling again and hugging my mum : ) It seems like there is progression and I hope everything will turn out great!

To my dad,

Pa, whatever the case, I know you are a 'D' and 'C' and you want to get things done immediately with super detail stuffs. You got to allow yourself to have fun and enjoy the journey as well and my only hope is that you are happy. Whatever you are doing, I know sincerely its for us, your family. Please take great care and we as one family will always stay strong and bonded. Nothing Gonna to Stop Us! We are behind you to break down any obstacles so long you are there to conquor. WE will always love and support you! All the best Pa. Success is within YOU! I LOVE YOU!

Your Son,
Dennis

Back to Gym!

After 2 weeks of retreat, I am finally back to gym. The past two days of workout in gym was drilling and laterally pumped my muscles up!I feel really really great. To make it more intense I challenged myself to swim 20 laps in the pool. I DID IT. This time I felt even more sore but the results when I looked into the mirror, WOW...Juicy...I hope...haha... I have decided to stick to this resume and train as hard as I can to have the dream body that I want. For those that have seen my dream board, you will know what I mean. I am working towards it. Wish me Success!

Master Mind Group

060607 is the day where 3 Masters will gather to form a MASTERMIND group. I am very excited and very happy to have come to this point of my life where I can finally find 2 other brothers to help each other evolve, grow, pertubate and share many many things that their wives (I am Single bro Joe : ) ) and maybe my future wife will not get to know. Our darkest secrets, our feelings, our emotions will all be safe to share in this space between us.....I am very looking foward! Thank you Joe and Kok Leong and I believe this group that we form does not come by accident and I strongly believe there is a purpose for us. What purpose? We will not know. Go with the flow and magic will begin to happen. Lets keep this energy, sygnery, power and faith going. See you Masters on Wednesday!

Yours Truly,
Master Dennis

........continue What I Feel Like Saying

as my goose bump was developing, it came the next song- 'Remember me this way' and straight away my hand picked up the phone and here comes Adelene. I delicated this song to you because you were the one who introduced me this song. Its so meaningful : ) . We had quite a long chat dun we : ) and certainly I felt our friendship has evolve to another level. Like I said, thank you for your love and support in embarking this journey with me. As for you, I can see that you are going towards the spiritual path and I am sure you will be the next rebirther for Asia. Mark my word Folks, who are reading my blog now, Adelene is going to be Asia Number 1 Art Therapist in her work! While she is still developing herself towards this, you can email her or call her to send your testimonals and build up your relationship with her. By the time she is 'there', I can tell you this, you have to queue from Singapore to KL. Quick quick quick... Speed is the Essence! Good luck Sis!

I am feeling certain and positive now. I can feel the gust of energy rushing through me and the certainty that fills my space to keep me grounded firmly with myself and aligning with the Universe. Goosh, its so immerse present NOW! I have wrote down a few things that I allow myself to 'FEEL' what I want to achieve. I have confidence that all my goals and dreams are going to realise very soon by just taking Actions! My family, tools, mentors, SCGs and Universal Laws are all with me, just apply : )

So many happenings and energy going on NOW...'WOW' factor! (background music - Sing Hallelujah) Great distinction and realization!

Dennis - Unleash the Power within!!! Lets EVOLVE!!! (ending music - What A Feeling!!!) haha...nothing happens by accident!!!

What I Feel Like Saying.....

What I Feel Like Saying Is...hmm...ok, I will let my fingers do the communication. Firstly, ADELENE.....Ho Sai La!!!! Your answer to my manifestation helps the prayers to the SCGs and of cos the M&Y July participants and Dom Dom! The participants may not know who you are but they will definitely surely want you to be their PD (without shadow of doubt). Dom as usual, would love the rainbow from the log lead by you and lastly - - - -SCGs, dying to see you! Btw SCG (Sweet Crazy Gang) this name is created by you when you were back then in Edmonton, so this round you must be there in person to'Complete' the gang! I look forward to see you my dear sister! Welcome back!

Now...what other feelings....hmm....oh YES! Brother Joe, last night was a heart felt session with you. I told myself I must meet up with you to share my joy and happiness and also to keep the connection going. I do not want to have a lag create. Thank you for the sharings yesterday. I can see you are facing challenges and yet allows this to make you grow and learn. Whatever the case, I am behind you till the end to conquor whatever obstacles you are encountering. Jia You!

Right now I am back to office on a comfortable quiet peaceful Sunday with no disturbance and hectic like the weekdays. So bless to have this lovely LCD screen and computer with me to communicate my feelings into words via typing. This computer has been with me helping hundreds of clients to trade millions of USD/EUR/GBP/CHF and many more other currency, therefore I can feel the 'millionaire' status with them and within myself. I am working towards it as well! Thank you to the clients for your investment and CS for accepting me into your bank, I am grateful!

Words are not able to describe my feelings now towards certain decision I have to make. Sometimes I felt decisions made may affect my environment, the love ones and even friends. But at the end of the day, I must be true to myself like my sister Sylvia shared with me in Kallang. Its only when I am true to myself then I can see myself moving towards where I want to be. Yesterday afternoon as I was on my way back home from work, I encountered a disabled man in his wheelchair, waiting to board the train. As the train arrived, he pushed himself in with his feet. He was not able to move any other part of the body accept his two feet. Upon boarding, my two hands landed up on his wheelchair, helping him to make some adjustment. I was in teary eyes. My emotion raise not because I was sad for him, but because I was enlightened by his action. I felt his will to live on in life despite how handicap he is. He demonstrates courage and of cos 'what you think of me is non of my business' attitude. I was very strongly motivated and grateful. A realization was awaken! He is TRUE TO HIMSELF!!! Thank you Sir. I wish you Happiness and Success!

As I am tying, the music at the background is playing ' heal the world'. I can feel so much love and happiness within now. Soo so much....my goose bump is developing now....

Thoughts

Dennis, I know you have alot of thoughts in your mind. Just follow your heart and ask yourself which is the one that you want to achieve first. You want to achieve lotsa of things and you are not completing it and some not even started yet. Give your mind a break! Allows it to rest and let your heart feel what is it that you want first. Have faith in it and ACTION. Dun question much and at the end of the day no results. You got to be fair to YOU! Life is too short man brother! WAKE UP!!!

Retreat at Malaysia

Good morning everyone! Welcome me back! I was away to Malaysia for 3 days. Purpose - HOLIDAY! It was the best Malaysia Trip I have ever had. Most of my travel to Malaysia is for education purposes, never experience much of the holiday mood unlike this round, I enjoyed to the fullest! The group consist of me, Lynn, Sinyan, Sylvia and Kok Leong. We the Fantastic 5 fought our way down from places to places(actually restaurant to restaurant) with KL's 'Little red car'. Hey his car may be small but when it DRIFFFFT......it demonstrates the essence of 'Fast and Furious 3 - Tokyo Drift'. Really fun right ladies! Great teamwork bro :) !

Day one - 'Eye on Malaysia'.

Just like 'Sinngapore Flyer' but a little smaller. And do not misjudge the size of this ferris wheel. May look smaller but when you are up there, you will shrink! Its so high and you literally demonstrate the 'essence of fear' unconsciously - WOW! The best part in the cabin is this- 5 of us were put together in this little cabin and we have so much fun snapping pictures of one another. We tremble the whole cabin, swopping place left, right, center to capture the magnificent view of every angle(imagine the little space we had). And the flashes keep flicking like a mini 'thunder' within our space. I reckon we were the noisest and more 'shakable' group up there! Other cabins were like wondering what were we doing? After a few rounds of phototaking, we decided that we should just enjoyed the view and not forgetting our purpose for being up there.The ferris wheel went about 6 rounds and does stopped right up at the peak of the height for couple of minutes (will upload the picture once its ready) for sight seeing. Its really a magnificent and unforgettable experience. The night went off with indulgence of food and fun.

Day 2 - Cherating Beach

Setting off at 8.30am which took us 4 hours to arrive the destination. Long and fun ride. We dance, sing and play in the car through out the journey. Never have so much fun before in a car especially when you have 3 little girls behind...manz....can drive you nuts! But then when they settled down and sleep, they drove us nuts too. WHY? Too quiet and no much energy flowing. Kok Leong and I were so sleepy and dare not sleep wor! Of COS : ) For the women s' safety comes our responsibility...hehe....

Finally we were LOST! Haha...what a navigator I was and I take reposibility for that ok Ladies : ) We stopped by and ask a shop lady by the road for direction. We actually over shot and took a U-turn back. Still the journey lasted 30 mins as its deep right in. Finally we arrived at Hotel 'Impiana'. Beautiful resort! The room is huge and like those olden days of bed where they have net surrounded(if we choose to) and the furniture were teak wood. WoW! Settling down and out for lunch. We had our meal at this restaurant called 'Unforgettable Seafood'. Its really unforgettable - Firstly, the food took quite a long time to arrive considering we are the 3rd group of customers only as the 1st two groups were already finishing their meals. Secondly, the drink accidentally spill onto SinYan's clothes and bag that leaves a lasting moment. Thirdly, the food arrived and its REALLY REALLY REALLY GREAT food. The Asam fish, 'Druken'chicken and the Stuffed crabs were super duper delicious. We enjoyed to the max. Lastly the meal comes up to only S$7 each. With such abundance of food, we really enjoyed the value of it. They truly stick to their integrity and demonstration of 'Unforgettable Seafood' cos we cannot forget the process of this meal from the start to the end! Truly Unforgettable!!

We had a short nap and proceed to the beach. With great people comes great weather(haha...like spiderman phase)! Sunny, bright and fresh! We took many photos, posing every different kind of facial gesture and patterns. I never had so much fun capturing the happy moments of you ladies and brother. Thank you all for allowing me to practise my photographing skill : ) We laid by the beach communcating funs and laughter with one another. The best part I felt was when we were laying flat on the shore, totally immerse with the nature, the sea and our sight was only the big sky. At that moment I wished the time will freeze and stay put. I never felt so blissful and light for a long time. Thank you Mother Nature!

This part is funny. After we sat up, our hair were stuffed with sands! And Sylvia start laying blame 'Whose idea ar, to lie here?' We all started laughing! We had a washing hair session by the sea and the only lack is a bottle of shampoo that will complete the whole process. So much laughter and happiness. Then comes dinner we had Chinese food again and as usual -Superb food! I realized in Malaysia even you randomly pick a resaturant,the food turns out to be the best out of that town. Basically whatever you are eating, there is some greatness in that food. Amazing!

Day 3 - Farewell

Well everything has to come to an end so that we can welcome a greater future. We bid farewell to Cherating and drove our way back to KL. This trip is really fun and I must say because of this great company of friends that summed up the total happiness within us. Thank you.

Brother Kok Leong - You are truly a amazing man with a big heart. You have never failed to take care of us as a host in KL. Your kindness is limitless and I want to thank you for all that you have done. I am truly grateful to have you as my dear buddy. Thank you brother!

Sylvia - You are a fantastic organiser. Your C-ness is clear and detailed. I am so bless to have this wonderful trip organised by you without having to put in much planning. Thank you for your patience and effort. I appreciated your doing-ness. Thank you Sister!!!

SinYan - Your presence makes a different! Your energy keeps the group going and its so contagious. So much fun to have you around. Thank you for being you. You are simply the best! : )

Lynn- My dearest sister. You ar...very....very....very....FUNNY! Super duper cute! Although I always disturb you, we know this is 'our' fun and that keeps us going as who we are as brother and sister. I really enjoyed myself with you around. Reminds me of the days in Aussie...Thanks sis. I love you.

Lastly to Joe, Jean, Andi, Lilian, Joseph, Adelene and Vasu. I did not forget you guys and gals even though we were enjoying ourselves so much. I constantly always have you in my heart and I look forward to the next holiday with everyone of the SCG members.

To the SCGs, together we stand and lets value add to the world. I Love You All!